I’ve been bitch-slapped by life so many times I’d have solid grounds for a restraining order.
Each time my heart’s been broken, my will exhausted and my spirit crushed I’ve had to dig deeper and deeper to find what I needed to carry on. Each time I picked myself up I got a little bit stronger. And each time I’ve thought, “Okay, enough now. Just how fucking strong does life need me to be…?!”
You should know that I’m not a fan of the fluffy stuff. I don’t believe in God. I think the Law of Attraction has its heart in the right place but has the execution all wrong. Crystals are pretty rocks and angels are awesome, beautiful and powerful – but fictional – creatures.
So it was pretty unexpected when the idea that “Everything happens for a reason” entered my head quite naturally as a valid, reasoned thought, as though everything I’ve been through really was for a purpose. As if life was taking me somewhere to show me something. As if there was a grand plan or that destiny really did exist.
Those thoughts had crossed my mind before, but only as a purely intellectual idea. They never had relevance before.
But this was different. It *felt* different.
I’ve learned so much from every time I’ve been beaten and bruised and got back up. I’ve learned so much from coaching these past ten years or so. I’ve learned so much about value. I’ve learned so much from having to dig deeper than ever to integrate and accept ME/CFS.
And it feels like something’s happening.
I deliberately haven’t written about this years World Domination Summit, because I think what’s to be said about it has already been said eloquently by others. It was a different kind of experience for me this year – more subtle, more peaceful – which felt entirely appropriate.
At the end of Andrea Scher‘s session, she gave a card to each person in the room. Each card had an individual, hand-written message. This was mine:
I don’t know exactly what that means and I’m careful about misusing the term “greatness” as it would be easy to stray into self-absorbed asshole territory, but it feels closer than it ever has. And the reason it feels closer is down to everything I’ve learned.
So what if everything that’s happened in my life – all the good and all the bad – has been to take me somewhere I was meant to go? What if everything really has happened for a reason?
You and I are no different, so if that’s true for me, it’s true for you too. Everything you’ve gone through and everything you’ve learned has been to take you somewhere you’re meant to be; a place where you can step into your greatness.
Wouldn’t that be something…